Creativity.

 

I keep finding myself wanting to write, but not knowing what to say. Do you ever feel that way? Like you have a million things to say, all swirling around in your head, but when you sit down to get it out, you just aren't sure how to put any of it into words? Lindsay is doing a 21 day creativity challenge that I really want to follow along with, but then I sit down to do something (anything) creative and I just hear crickets.

  I think it has something to do with the lessons I'm learning right now. Have you ever had a season in life where you know things within you are shifting, changing- you can literally feel and see it- but you can't quite put words to it yet? That's what these past few months have felt like for me. I am not the same person I was in January. It feels as if something in me broke this past winter and spring, but in the best way. I can't quite put my finger on yet or put a voice to it, but I have a feeling that ten years from now I will look back on this time as being important and transformational and just one of sweet constant prayer.

  All of that sounds so heady and vague and dramatic. I don't mean for it to, at all really. I want to start fleshing out all I'm learning and put words to it, and eventually I think I will. In the meantime, I do want to practice being creative. Making intentional time every day, for a few weeks, to do something new or fun or different. I DO NOT think I'm a creative person. That is my first reaction, but really truly I know we are all creative in different ways. And, so much of my time right now is wrapped up in being a mom. That gives me a ton of chances to be creative (if I take advantage of them!) and also makes me want to not forget some of the ways I can be creative independent of my kids.

  So, here's to having fun and trying to create some new things over these next few days. I'm thinking crafts with the kids, projects around the house, cooking and baking, pretend play, writing (I so want to get back into the groove of writing, even if just for myself), and who knows what else.

And just so I can keep track, here's my list of what I've done each day (so far):
day 1. watercolor painting (with the kids!)
day 2. writing