Friday, January 2, 2015

Taking Stock 2014.

  I love taking stock. Big pictures are really important, I think. Looking at all the little moments that make up your bigger story seems essential to me.
  2014 was a full-to-the-brim kind of year. After a couple of years of heartache and longing, this one felt like a year of plenty. Of blessings upon blessings. I've gone back and forth on how to feel about that though. I of course want to celebrate and be thankful, but I also struggle with guilt. Guilt because people I love are in different, harder seasons. Because sometimes celebrating seems like bragging. Because sometimes it makes me feel unrelatable. I know, I know. It's not. But sometimes it feel like it.
  While 2013 was a year of choosing joy {when it was hard and sometimes didn't make sense}, I would say that 2014 was a year of experiencing joy. Not just because Caleb arrived. But also because of wonderful new friendships, being able to stay home full time, adjustments at Justin's job, celebrating new life with family members, and so much more. And since I know that even this really full season is only part of my bigger story, I've been savoring it. It could change in an instant. We'll for sure have hard seasons ahead of us again. So 2014 was about experiencing joy for what's it is and not taking it for granted one bit.

Tomorrow, With a Smile in 2014

April// felt full to the brim, started garden planning, took the pups to an Easter egg hunt, started decorating the nursery, and of course finished more letters to Caleb {27, 28, 29, and 30 weeks}    

June// This was a quieter month. As I finished out my pregnancy, I also grieved with my friend. After welcoming Caleb, I really struggled with how to celebrate his new life while still grieving. Those two {bitter and sweet} events colored the rest of my blog post for 2014. I wrote my last three letters to Caleb {35, 36, and 37 weeks}, announced his birth, talked about becoming a mom, and shared his beautiful newborn photos


Allison said...

I love taking stock of the year as well and reflecting on the year's blessings! We never know what each day/month/year has in store so we have to savor all the good moments. Glad 2014 was such a joyful year for you and your family! XO

Unknown said...

Oh I loved this!!! AND I so very much enjoyed your pregnancy updates throughout the year as well!