Wednesday, July 23, 2014

A new season.

As of last Wednesday, I am officially a stay at home mom. I met with my bosses to let them know my decision to leave work and spend my days with Caleb {it was left really open-ended when my maternity leave started} and they were so gracious and genuinely excited for me. 
  But can I be honest for a minute? It was a hard decision. I know that probably seems crazy to some. But it's true. I've struggled with grieving the end of one season as I've prepped for this new one. Hear me, I am so grateful and excited to be able to be with Caleb full time. I truly am. I also just love being a social worker. It isn't so much a job as it is an extension of who I am. Stepping back from that for a season kind of feels like I'm putting a part of myself on a shelf for a bit. I am confident I will step back into social work in another season or maybe in some form during this one, but it is still an adjustment for me right now, you know? 
  Also, while we're being honest, I should admit I'm a little worried I will get lost in being a mom. I so love this new role, but it doesn't make up all of me. How will I still find ways to be challenged by others and get out of the house and remember what day of the week it is? I've been praying really specifically for opportunities to still use my desire to help others and spend time in community even though my day-to-day looks a lot different now. I'm praying for new ways to live out the other parts of me, besides being a mom, in this new season. And I also signed us up for mommy and me swim classes. So there's that. And if you happen to chat with me around noonish on any given weekday, maybe ask if I'm still in my pj's? I have a small goal of at least getting dressed in something other than yoga pants each day. Lofty, but I'm working on it. And, in the meantime, I'm just soaking up all the coo's and snuggles and this time with my {way to fast!} growing little boy. 

  All that to say- here's to new seasons in life and learning to navigate change! Any tips for me on how to adjust to being a stay at home mom? Have a part time social work job opening for me {just kidding} {but only kind of} :) 


Alisa Marie said...

I totally understand this. I went back to work for 3 days and decided to stay home. It really was a difficult decision, but by far one of the best ones I've ever made! You will love it!

Holly Osbeck said...

This is exciting, Katie! I totally understand about it being a tough decision...going back for me will be rough. But I am excited for your new season and desire to still use your gifts in new ways. And yay for swim! We are doing ours in the fall :) Keep up the great work!

Allison said...

Wow...big changes happening all around! I am very excited for you and will pray God fills that place in your heart and that you find ways to still be you and momma to Caleb!

henning love said...

oh my gosh that photo is so so sweet. thanks for sharing your honest about working, it isnt an easy decision at all but in the long run you and caleb will benefit from that decision. after i quit my job i kept calling myself being unemployed, it was hard to change that mindset of actually staying home but i love my new "job" so much more