Tuesday, January 28, 2014

Dreaming.



  Yesterday I mentioned that I've caught myself dreaming about the future a lot lately. 10 years ago, my dreams would have been to travel the world, fall in love, go to grad school. But its like something happens after you graduate college and more or less settle down. Dreaming is completely acceptable and talked about in high school and college and even the first few years post college. Then we have to be responsible, and dreaming seems flighty. Is it though?

  I don't know. I have a lot of dreams that I'm not super vocal about. A lot of dreams that I can't imagine how they would work themselves out. But when I try to tell myself they're just silly, I get a lot of push back from somewhere deep down. I think that when I call them dreams, I think I really mean to say that they are deep desires of my heart. Not flighty at all.

 Here are some of my biggest dreams right now. They're on my mind a lot these days, as I start thinking about how the next year will shape up and where I will be investing my time. 

//Live by the sea. I know, I know. A lot of people say this. But I mean it. I really, really do. From the time I first knew about the ocean, I knew I wanted to live there. And, if we're getting specific, I would choose Wilmington, NC.

//Stay at home with my babies. Not everyone wants to be at home full time {or some version of that} with their kiddos, but I really think I do. I have no idea how this would ever work financially or if my social work passions would die out.

//Dive deeper into social work. Also,see dream #2. How in the world would I balance staying at home and working? I'm not sure. But I really desire to do so. I've even kicked around the idea of becoming a Noonday Ambassador. My dream social work job would involve small things like notes of encouragement, a bit of a leadership role, lots of deep and challenging conversations, building and serving a specific community and definitely some social action. Totally doable, right? If you know of a job like this, do tell.

//Be more creative. Super specific, right? I don't know if this means in home, work, or volunteer life. But I have an ever growing itch to develop a serious, committed creative outlet. I have a feeling motherhood and eventually social work will play into this one!

What about you? Do you have any dreams you're not living out yet? And big ones you're too afraid to share? 

3 comments:

Lauren said...

Totally tracking with you, dear one. Trying to figure out how I can stay home full-time, but continue my career too. Let me know when you discover the answer! Love you!

Elise Nicole said...

I would love to be more creative too. And it's hard because it takes time to figure out what method to be creative in (watercolor? sewing? poetry? DIY? graphic design) and I don't feel like I have a ton of time to experiment since I work 8-5, ya know? I'm trying to work on that dream this year!

changeismyonlyconstant said...

I am right there with you on being a stay-at-home mom. While I don't have any children yet, I would love to stay home with them once I do, but being the main breadwinner in the home, I have no idea how we would swing it financially. Then faith kicks in.

~Katy