One year ago today, we sat in an ultrasound room and learned that we had lost our first child. We grieved quietly together, and a few weeks later I shared this.
Fast forward a year, and I can confidently say that God is good. That his grace and mercy really truly do abound in deepest waters. But I also add that, honestly, sometimes I'd rather not have to tread through those deep waters, you know? Deep waters aren't always fun.
Dear sweet baby, Though I barely knew you, I love you so much. My heart and arms still ache to hold you, but I am so thankful that you only know peace and joy and Jesus. I miss you like crazy, but I'm holding out for the day when your daddy and I will be able to look into your perfect face and hold you again with Jesus. Love, your mommy.