Happy New Year!!!
2012 was one long, sometimes painful, year for me. I'm not so sad to see it go, but can truly say that I'm thankful for even the bitter parts and how God's drawn me closer to him over the last twelve months.
Let's just go ahead and call 2012 the year of babies. Babies were Every. Where.
At the end of 2011, we learned that both of my older sisters were expecting...so gender reveals and baby showers made up our family's spring and summer. We had friends that found out they were prego and other friends that got new baby puppies. Seriously...so many babies!
In May, I crossed two major things off my bucketlist. I graduated with my Master's in Social Work and celebrated being done with school forever!!! I also finished my first quilt, made for my little nephew.
I like to say that I slept through June (pregnant), cried through July (miscarriage), and tried to move on in August.
A little blunt, but painfully accurate.
In early June, we found out that we were expecting (after taking 6 tests) and confirmed with some blood tests. We kept it to ourselves and told no one. I also started thinking a lot about this song, not even knowing how God so perfectly placed in on my heart to prepare me for the pain ahead. Because in early July, we saw our baby for the first time...and in the same instant found out we had lost it. And we were hit with maybe the heaviest grief we've ever felt.
But only to experience God's grace and peace and comfort like never before. One week after we got that sad news, we found ourselves surrounded by some of the best friends ever...being prayed and cried over. Being loved.
And one week to the day after our miscarriage, my sweet nephew was born. God spoke really sweetly to my heart and emphasized both the bitter and sweet parts of this life...and that his joy and love are consistent through each.